Post by chelsey1 on Jul 31, 2012 17:27:37 GMT -5
[style=color: 969696; font-size: 35px; line-height: 10%; font-family: times new roman; text-shadow: -1px 0 white, 0 1px white, 1px 0 white, 0 -1px white, 1px 0 white, 0 -1px white, 1px 0 white, 0 -1px white]hi, my names chelsey.,[style= width: 300px; height: 255px; padding: 15px; overflow: auto; font-size: 9px; text-align: justify;]last year, in december, i tried to kill myself. i took eight asprins and couldn't take anymore- i was crying so hysterically. my wife- or ex wife i should say- was there for me, and while i didn't tell her what was going on at the time, her making me laugh through my tears saved me. we had this couple, Zachary and Alejandra- and as stupid as it seems, they made me so happy<3 i'd look forward to her posts everyday to keep me uplifted. irish, and several other members on the site were always shitting on my poor Alejandra, so obviously i was upset when they started saying that Zachary and one of Irish's characters would be ppeeerfect for each other...finally i was done with it. i left.
of course Irish went ahead and plotted with Zachary as soon as Alejandra was out of the way, so i've never really liked her. mariah, my exwife, made a site for just me and her, where we could have Zach and Alee be together without having to deal with stupid idiots. in april, i started having thoughts again... i didn't feel wanted or needed, or loved- whatever. i had been battling depression for months now, and i finally cracked and told my mom. she didn't believe me, but who wants to believe that their kid is fucked up. so i went to the doctor, and scored a twenty four when i should have gotten under eleven. for some reason or another i went back to cf, because i missed certain members and wanted to make my wife happy. of course, i wanted to bring Alejandra back because she's my favorite but my wife wouldn't let her be with Zachary... um... what else is there.. oh! me and my wife icc alot via aim. and one day i started and she was all, 'not today, not in the mood.' she was like that for weeks and shit. obviously i was getting annoyed when we had been doing it for months and she suddenly cut me off cold turkey.
she stopped replying to our zalejandra threads, and then i really got pissed off. i started being an asshole and bugging her / annoying her about it. when finally she snapped at me and i snapped back, my exact words were, 'are you on your periood?' and she said, 'no, loool' and then i said 'you seem like you are. forrealz' then, 'LOL nope.' and finally, 'could you take some midol?' then she blocked me and stopped messaging me. i know it's stupid that i'm so upset about it, but i always think that she's the reason why i'm still alive today.... soo... yeah. i'm crying all the time for no reason, and so i sent her a long ass pm, took my antidepressants that i haven't taken in a week- and was shaking. i literally thought i was having a seizure, but my emotions were so fucking crazy, that i guess in my private message i sent to her...i said 'if i get a seizure and die it'll be your fault and you'll have to live with that for the rest of your days.
seriosuly.' i don't remember writing it, and for writing it i feel like an awful person. my wife won't talk to me, and everyone on the site hates me if you haven't realized from this, 'Oh, they think you're funny? They are probably just laughing at you, not with you. They might actually be laughing because you're just so ridiculous it's not even funny. They'll learn eventually how phyco you really can be.' and this, 'You actually suck more then I do because you can't even use real freaking grammar and punctuation. You suck as a person and you suck as a writer. Give up already.' and lastly, ' Yeah, we have all turned against you because you have passed all of our nerves and we are so over your bullshit.'
so just as a heads up guys, let me know before i get attached to you all- if you want me here or not. i'm not liked by many people. i'm also an asshole. i bitch alot. and i'm 'sadistic' as someone on the other site put it. yeah. that's all.
of course Irish went ahead and plotted with Zachary as soon as Alejandra was out of the way, so i've never really liked her. mariah, my exwife, made a site for just me and her, where we could have Zach and Alee be together without having to deal with stupid idiots. in april, i started having thoughts again... i didn't feel wanted or needed, or loved- whatever. i had been battling depression for months now, and i finally cracked and told my mom. she didn't believe me, but who wants to believe that their kid is fucked up. so i went to the doctor, and scored a twenty four when i should have gotten under eleven. for some reason or another i went back to cf, because i missed certain members and wanted to make my wife happy. of course, i wanted to bring Alejandra back because she's my favorite but my wife wouldn't let her be with Zachary... um... what else is there.. oh! me and my wife icc alot via aim. and one day i started and she was all, 'not today, not in the mood.' she was like that for weeks and shit. obviously i was getting annoyed when we had been doing it for months and she suddenly cut me off cold turkey.
she stopped replying to our zalejandra threads, and then i really got pissed off. i started being an asshole and bugging her / annoying her about it. when finally she snapped at me and i snapped back, my exact words were, 'are you on your periood?' and she said, 'no, loool' and then i said 'you seem like you are. forrealz' then, 'LOL nope.' and finally, 'could you take some midol?' then she blocked me and stopped messaging me. i know it's stupid that i'm so upset about it, but i always think that she's the reason why i'm still alive today.... soo... yeah. i'm crying all the time for no reason, and so i sent her a long ass pm, took my antidepressants that i haven't taken in a week- and was shaking. i literally thought i was having a seizure, but my emotions were so fucking crazy, that i guess in my private message i sent to her...i said 'if i get a seizure and die it'll be your fault and you'll have to live with that for the rest of your days.
seriosuly.' i don't remember writing it, and for writing it i feel like an awful person. my wife won't talk to me, and everyone on the site hates me if you haven't realized from this, 'Oh, they think you're funny? They are probably just laughing at you, not with you. They might actually be laughing because you're just so ridiculous it's not even funny. They'll learn eventually how phyco you really can be.' and this, 'You actually suck more then I do because you can't even use real freaking grammar and punctuation. You suck as a person and you suck as a writer. Give up already.' and lastly, ' Yeah, we have all turned against you because you have passed all of our nerves and we are so over your bullshit.'
so just as a heads up guys, let me know before i get attached to you all- if you want me here or not. i'm not liked by many people. i'm also an asshole. i bitch alot. and i'm 'sadistic' as someone on the other site put it. yeah. that's all.
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